Zindagi

Tried Hindi poetry for a change, inspired by ZNMD.

Raahon mein itni tanhaayiyan hai kyon

Aankehn meri itni nam hai kyon.

In hothon ki pyaas mit-ti nahin hai kyon,

In lafzon mein pyaar bhar rahi hai kyon.

Nigaahon mein teri parchaayiyan hai kyon,

Khayalon mein tu aati hai kyon

Yaadein teri is dil ko bharein itna,

Ki aankhein meri bhar aati hai kyon.

Zindagi hai yeh waqt ka safar,

Ghadi ke kaanton ki tarah bas chalte hai ham.

Har waqt lage kahin aur hai manzil,

Chalte rehte hain hum dhoondte hue saahil.

Ud raha hai aaj dil mera,

In havaoon ke pankh lekar,

Baadalon ko jhaank-ke mein dekhoon,

Lage ki poora aasman hai mera

Armaanon ki is kashti mein,

Khoya humne hai bahut paya kam.

Lekin jo paya woh kimti hai itna,

Ki zindagi ko jeena seekh gaye hai hum.

Chodke sab kuch chalte hain hum,

Bas yaadon ko leke jaa rahe hain.

Raahein kholke apni baahein hai bula rahi

Zindagi ko dhoondte hue niklein hain hum.

Phir bhi, raahon mein itni tanhaayiyan hai kyon

Aankehn meri itni nam hai kyon.

Apathy

In the graveyard, I don’t know if am
The one in the grave smiling
Or the one standing outside and crying.
But I stand solid like a rock
I buried my emotions.

Decaying is my interest
In the artificial society
Constructed on the concrete of status
I find it hard to smile but laugh aloud inside.
A look into your eyes is enough
Even though your lips smile.

My blood has turned cold
And I don’t feel nothing
My feelings got transfused into
The solution of apathy
When you cut my vein of patience.

The love you showed was
An artificial conscience
At the back of it was narcissism
Of self nourishment.
I couldn't cry at it neither could I smile
You were so unreal, I just let you fly.

I do not need anyone now
I do not feel anything.
The split emotionalist of mine
I buried him crying in the grave
And I stand outside smiling now
A freedom from artificial emotions,
I found my apathy.

Attempt

I am lunatic, I am safe

I have a barrier, Oh god it’s great.

Walled is my vision, Stoned is my will

I fear to look up cos space never ends.

Satisfaction is an evil,

Complacence, its attribute.

Negative child it breeds,

With dormant mutation in the gene.

Stagnancy is a disease,

Mostly undisputed.

A calamity can throw you away

The epidemic will kill.

There can be no trigger,

There is no gun.

I am clobbered by frustration,

I cannot retreat.

The surmounting lamentation

Presses me to attempt.

Blank is it all about

Cold is its nature

Hope is its savior

An attempt is

Attribute to temptation

Belief

I am a daemon, I am inside you.

I look for simplicity,

In your chaotic complexity

I look for you but am asked to believe.

Here comes the filth,

Superstition is its king,

Flies of ignorance,

Enslave your neurons

And breed in your maladroit.

Conquered in a conquest, I find you in distress.

But am still asked to believe.

God is whom you plead for

The freedom which you surrendered,

The cell was unidirectional

And you have no exit.

The stamp of timelessness

I can see in you.

You never lived in time,

You never progressed.

Still as it can get, better described dead

You finished yourself and how do I still believe.

Filled with filth of superstition

Dismayed in your timeless cage,

God was never there to bail you out

Betrayed are you from your faith.

And this is how,

I question your belief.

Paranoia

Disbelief, is all I can see myself with

Sanity has become insanity.

I will become perfect,

Studded with the diamonds of Paranoia

The world will swallow the diamonds

Signaling the death of the will.

Follow the shallow river,

And a canal will depart.

Sane in me, will take it deep.

But trapped in the depth of dark,

The sane will lose its light.

Sanity is delusion, Depth is dark.

Shallow will reach the ocean,

Purity dies to salinity.

Insanity is to run berserk through the world

Dance in its shallowness to spray all over

Only to die pure.

Trying to find difference in indifference,

Making my will, unwill.

Dating back my mind into future,

Cutting the diamonds with diamonds,

The Paranoia prevails.

Neural Pain

I feel like am floatin in the space

Fallin infinitely.

Which way to go, I’m confused

Can’t control it anyway.

Happiness has had only sojourn

In my place.

They say the space is filled with happiness

All I can see is void.

Sometimes I think I revolve Sun,

Sometimes I think otherwise.

The space is filled with so much black,

There is no surface to paint.

The space is squeezing me,

The neural pain is restraining me,

To infinitesimal.

The nerves are breaking down,

The nerves are breaking down.

I can find no light here,

No gravity pulls me near,

Infinite float in space.

Is my life gonna end this way

Neural pain will blow me away

Infinitesimal pieces in space.

Loop

In my life are scars, they're not goin

All the jumpin across the river

Only, lands me here

I'm so scared that they loop

I'm not to lose it all the way

The way I did all the way

Gotta win it someday.

I came running though to your place

You never looked at my face

I can only blame myself

You left me out of the place

I am not going away

This pain runs through my vein

Pushing as long as I can

The rain and those stars

Polished me so well

I could just come outa anonimity

But I gave up to my pity

I gave it all that I could

It never occured to me

I'm never gonna make it now

Now I can only see the loop

Which spirals to the void

I realized, that I am

Back at square one

I'm gonna digress from the path

I'm gonna depart form the rule

I'm gonna rule it now.